Well this is a difficult post to write but February has been a terrible start to the year.
I had a planned on attending two of my favourite cosplay events this year (Secret Con and CosXPo) but due to my car needing over £1k of work to get through its MOT my plans are lying on the floor in tatters much like my mental state.
I am currently very depressed and I am contemplating quitting photography altogether and winding up this site and all other places my work is viewable.
If you’ve followed me for some time you may know that the last time I found myself in a similar situation was way back in 2018. I managed to bounce back after a 3 month hiatus and go back into the cosplay scene. This time I’m not so sure…
I’ve loved photography ever since I first picked up a camera aged 11. Suddenly just days before my 57th birthday and I’m now in an existential crisis.
I think that I will have to step away for a while and figure out if I really still care about photography or just change things for something else and walk away.
It’s really sad that I’m feeling this depressed. When I look at how much my work has progressed over the last few years, I honestly never imagined that I could produce work this good. Part of me looks back on this and thinks “I set out what I aimed to do and achieved it!”. I honestly could walk away with this thought and have only a few regrets but still feel a sense of pride in what I’ve done.
So what happens next..? I don’t know.